1. Night altar

     

  2. When it’s all over, I want to say: All my life I was a bride married to amazement. -Mary Oliver

     


  3. Creature Writing

    I am spending 11 minutes each morning on a practice called ”object writing”: gathering raw material for songs by writing in stream of consciousness sensory language (see: Writing Better Lyrics). I’m accessing past & future selves and journeying around the world, all in 11 minutes. I’ve decided to call it “creature writing,” endowing objects with consciousness. Love & splendor from Kauai, Opal

    Creature: TREE

    The smell of pine needles baked in the sun: I rode my bike square into the trees—it was a bubblegum pink Schwinn, a white banana seat with pink stars the air stung my skin as I swung off course—dreamily rolling down a grassy hill, the slick tasty grass calling me home, chanting me down in a chorus of crickets and rain. The trees have been loving me from Before my birth, a wet hickory bough hanging over my grandmother’s head, perfumed and slightly sleepy linden trees dazed sentinels in my European lineage the land where steam poured from broken bread on cold mornings and a rosy round-cheeked mother pushed the carriage toward home, a loaf under one arm, mourning doves and morning glories spreading their lush mouths the plants climbing over me in salty gestures of love wrapping my limbs in solitude and bliss, crunchy leaves and rough branches the equine scent of dogwood the virgin plumeria flowers, petals of silk caressing my thighs and the backs of my arms as I lie helpless in the cool shade: will I ever recover from trees? Can I love one who is not a tree? Will I reveal my secret succubus, give birth to swinging tendrils of green? In Powderhorn Park I flushed my spine & tail against a white pine—who called me Home—once there was and once there wasn’t—the tree who cradled me before I knew I was

     


  4. Walkabout

    I go out like the ravenhead girl in the fairy tale

     

    I go out with the basket of bread in my arms

     

    I say to my friends I do not leave you without grief

     

    That before I was sentient

     

    I wore a long braid down my back

     

    My baby began to kick inside me

     

    I did not know how I would suffer

     

    How cold it would be and without one stolid

     

    Roughhewn frame to contain me let me tell you

     

    I have done a lot of weeping I have shorn off

     

    Much of my hair do you understand

     

    I am setting out to expect my hair I am going out

     

    To get pregnant with silence

     

    If my grief was to be prevented it would be long long

     

    Before I felt into myself before these winters

     

    Oh longer still while my path was nascent

     

    And wet with dew—I ate my fill I carried

     

    The basket of bread and my pale skin expressed

     

    Arrogance of my need my nature gorgeous

     

    Ignorance of my lost name